I thought that the life was now over, I was happy that there was no more pain, no more suffering and no more life. When I looked back I could see my parents, friends and others crying, though I could not feel the pain. I could just see them cry.
I moved on. All I could see was a white light, it was bright and attractive.
The Light which earlier I had thought was a tiny point grew bigger in size. I noticed that I was not moving forward, It was the light that was coming towards me. I stopped … The light still Grew bigger and bigger. I could feel the energy within, something strange ... but positive and peaceful.
Soon the Light was unbearable I thought I was going blind … the light was so unbearable that I closed my eyes …
“Hello!!”...
I was startled … Who was that? This was the first time I felt something … It was a chill running down my spine … I opened my Eyes.
“I have seen you somewhere” I said “I don’t remember where exactly”
He smiled ... “You have seen me... But You failed to notice me.. ”
“Is it??... I am sorry ... were you in my office or College?” I inquired
He was just insanely staring at me … and smiling (It was a very “I-Knew-it-would-happen” kind of a smile)… I was wondering, that how could I not notice such a familiar face...
“Are you sure …you really want to know?” He asked.
I said “Well ... I would love to …”
“We have been to the same college and been to the same office …. We have always been together”
He said … I was Surprised ... Now that’s impossible and Ridiculous!!! We’ve always been together ... I haven’t Noticed him… Have I Suffered from Amnesia or something!!
“Who are you? I don’t think I have seen you … Please!!!” … It was Irritating now…
He had a very helpless smile now, His Hopeful eyes were difficult to look at … I turned away from him...
I felt his hand over my shoulder as he said, “Friend... Let me tell you who I am … Where I Come from.” I nodded.
“I have always been with you … I have always been through all the things YOU have been through …I was hurt the most when YOU were in Pain … and I was the most happy when YOU smiled,”
“Didn’t we ever talk then?? I said before he could finish …
“Well... I tried to talk to you... But you always ignored me…You used to talk to everyone but me,”
“Haaa !! Never … I would never do that... Puh-lease !!” I exclaimed
“Well.. You did!! But I never gave up …because I know that all problems that because YOU were not Listening to me... You just hear and ignore me…. Each Phase of life I have been trying to show you the path … But you have always Ignored… Well … I am You …. Your soul … And today is the last time I am talking to you… And YOU ARE listening… Today … I am satisfied...”
“You would have turned out to be a different person … Only if you would have noticed me … Because I knew you more than anyone… You preferred talking to your Mom, Dad, Friends ... Take suggestions from them...”
“But not once did you talk to me … You never asked me what I wanted ... All you cared Was what others thought and what others felt … But what about you ?? What about me??? Even When I tried talking to you, you stopped me …
“For you it was “non-sense”. But you failed to understand that that’s what was best for you. What makes sense for others need not make sense to you. You always wanted to “become like someone”, For once If You would have been yourself … Your end would have been much different …Now the time has gone… and now the life has gone…You have lost me… You have lost yourself“
Everything was falling into place now … Now I started repenting... I started feeling the pain … I wanted to go back... I wanted my life back... In a desperate attempt I pleaded to my soul “Please give me a chance I want to correct my mistake I want to go back … I want to live … Live life my way... Please is there any way out??”
He smiled … And with his smile… the Light vanished!! He disappeared.
It was dark I looked everywhere I could not see anything … I had lost the most precious thing … I Lost Myself … I closed my eyes as tears started rolling down my cheeks
I could feel some vibrations … My head Started aching … I Opened my eyes... A bright light again… I could see my room… I looked around … I could not believe it!!
I am alive?? Yes!!! Yes!!! Yes!!! I am!
But I could still feel the vibration... It was my cell (Du-Oh!!) …
“Hey Neha !!! You still sleeping ?? We have got to attend a seminar … Come fast” My Friend on the other side of the phone Yelled …
I was about to answer until I heard a very familiar voice
It said “Yesterday was too tiring … You have got to sleep …”
I knew what it meant … I am not making the same mistake
“Hey! Sorry… but I won’t be able to attend it… You carry on … I wanna sleep now !! ” I answered the phone lazily
“Are You nuts… Its Damn Important ... You can sleep later... C’mon” My Friend said
“Nope … I want to’ I smiled as I hung up…
I thought as I cuddled my self to sleep... Something that’s important to others need not be important to me…
Cheers!!!
Neha
Today ... I Live ...
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back. "
I came accross this Quote and I thought Its So True ...Why be upset ... Why Worry ... People who care .. Will come back ... and those who dont Dont deserve it anyways ... simple !! This Quote just explains it Perfectly..
Then ... Why do we burden ourselves so much .. Why do we think so much about others ... Our soul deserves some love .. We got to love , Understand and respect ourself ... Thats when We will start Loving our life .. and thats When We can Follow our Heart...
So ...
Today, I Forgive ...
Today, I Live ...
Today I Smile ...
Today I breath Freely ..
Today, IS a new Day for me...
Beacuse I dont know What is in store for me tomorrow ...
All I know Is TODAY!
Cheers!!
Neha
