A True Someone

The greatest achievement in life according to me is to be humble, subtle and still leave an irreplaceable mark on the people in our lives. Pretence just makes live so complex. I believe it takes a lot of courage to be true to oneself, and whilst doing so we are often ridiculed, we are often asked to change to “fit-in”. But why is Fitting in so necessary at the expense of cheating our own self.

When we know we are true to ourselves, we make sure that we do not give the right to anyone, to question our integrity. I believe that each one of has got an innocent kid within us and each time we cheat ourselves, we torture the child within us and we loose our innocence. It all begins with a small lie, which gives us the tiny winy pinches and later we just gets used to it, because the child within us no more cries because it has no life in it and reviving it is just so-not easy.

In this fast and Techno-world of ours, we often start living a different life and alter our beliefs so that the same can impress others and we can be liked by everyone. I still don’t understand the need to be loved by everyone, I think... Life would be so bland with out those extra non-lovers. I think it is necessary for all of us to understand and accepts some things in life, (a) Pretence Doesn’t last for ever and (b) we cannot be liked by everyone. I feel happy being me doing crazy things, I like laughing out loud and do not feel the need to bother if others like the way I laugh or no., I love to cry when I am sad and do not think that, it’s a reason for any embarrassment. I have a beautiful life which has colors of different shades bright as well as dull, but hey! All these colors belong to me and have no adulteration in it whatsoever.

Everyone knows this, we just don’t accept it because we are just so used to convenience in our lives that we just don’t want to take efforts believe and stand by what we feel. But well, the results of cheating and lying are often negative, because with any kind of lie a “Guilt-free” living is impossible. In the race of being loved by everyone we end up losing people who are really compatible to your “Real-self”.

And well why change at all, as my dear friend Yash Chopra has said:

Koi pyaar Kare Toh, Tumsay kare

Tum Jaise ho, Vaise kare

Koi Tumhe badal k pyaar kare

toh who pyaar nahi , sauda kare,

Aur Oh saaheba Pyaar main sauda nahi

So, each time I look at the mirror I know I can meet my eyes, because I have a true someone within myself.

Cheers!

Neha

A Last Chance

Being a software engineer I wished if my life could work like a computer, if my destiny would follow commands set by me. Well, Life would have been much simple a "ctrl+F" would have helped me find my lost friends, and a "ctrl+Z" would have reversed my actions, or during those worst times “F5” would have refreshed that page of my life.

But Life unlike a software is not programmed, and my mistake was that I forgot, I forgot that I had some dreams which were not limited to my office cabin, They were unbounded. Dreams that came straight from my heart they did not rationalize, they do not care what the world would think.

I had conveniently reframed my passion to my hobby. Back then I thought that money was important and music won’t give me that, Well Wrong again, well I was to scared to do anything unconventional, I was an “Practical fool” (That’s what my Friends called me). I knew engineering would be a SAFE and easy option and well I could always take up music later and continue it as a hobby. But then just like everything in life my music to was far behind.

As Flash back begins I see my Friends, those cuppa coffees, those bets on the silliest thing possible on earth, and of course those sobs that made our friendship stronger. We do meet, well… Not really the last time I met my friends was around 5 years back. And in the name of keeping in touch we wish each other happy birthdays. Well, it’s hard to believe that a friendship so strong can be fragmented. Yes, it can be when we take relationships and friendship for a ride and then they are there to stay for ever.

Delicious as success is, its taste can often make you so mesmerized and then you want more of it, and in this race we tend to leave behind those perfect moments and those relationships and make way towards the next phase of life.

My Reports Lying by my bed, I know soon my life will come to an end. I may SURIVE for a month or a year. I wish I could have LIVED the life that I had. I see the Guitar but I can’t play it, I know My friends are there but I cant go back. I should have listened to my heart, I should have taken some chance …

And as the sleeping pills are doing their bit my thoughts are just getting murky, and I say I wish I get a “Last chance”